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Don't Let Your Eyes Forget The Stars (Remastered)

by This Glass Embrace

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1.
Intro 01:30
I want to be the person that you think I am I want to know all the right words and say them I will be calm but I will not be silent I will grow up, but I will not grow lifeless
2.
Hunters 04:34
The air is cold, along the windows and the walls When I breathe in, it tastes like summer But I'm exhaling bursts of snow I cut the pictures from their frames so I could see What they would look like bare and empty As unremarkable as me. I am afraid, a campfire horror story fear If I said your name into a mirror thirteen times, would you appear? There are thoughts you have to turn away from quickly And pretend you didn't see Avert your eyes and keep on breathing There are reasons that you lie awake at night Things you ignore just to survive And this is one of them The lies you tell to keep yourself alive I've spent a lifetime mapping continents and seas The charcoal lines of clean divisions The fences and the ground between What if this sentence spells the end of all we know? The wind will rearrange the pages And scatter everything we wrote This is a hunter's arrow shot through flesh and bone It would destroy more to remove it than to just leave it alone What I can give you, I will give Take all you need You could take everything This is all I have to offer Weary eyes and careful hands A voice that shakes when I am singing A heart that's full of selfish plans This is all I have to offer Though I will offer all the same A love I hope will be sufficient A promise I promise to make
3.
This time next year Will this house be standing empty? Will the walls still speak our names? These songs we sang Have settled deep into the carpet When we're gone, will they remain? And there's no winter in Arizona Just a summer and a fall It's been maybe nineteen years since you've seen snow Can I forget? Please, forget? The taste of history is bitter in my mouth If anything I chose was right If any deed was good, I can't recall it now This time next year Will you still be praying softly As I'm drifting off to sleep? We prayed for change For anything to break the silence Now I wish that we could stay And there's no winter in Arizona, just a summer and a fall I never thought I'd miss the mountains when I'd gone And this morning, entombed in the traffic, you started to think If you could, would you rather be somebody, be somewhere, else? If you could escape all the nightmares that steal your sleep Would you be willing to forfeit the daydreams that make you yourself?
4.
Ruins 03:59
Last night I broke apart against a sentence I am only pieces scattered on the page What are the adjectives to keep the light from fading? What are the verbs that I can use to make you stay? After the storm, we emerged from the wreckage In the ruins, you soundlessly held onto me There was hope but the ocean rose and claimed it All my words are sunk into the sea I woke to morning and the sun against the concrete I felt the summer loud and angry on my eyes For a breath, I thought I heard the door creak open But it was only songbirds, crying out nearby I didn't know a life could shatter in a heartbeat I saw the monuments we'd built turn into sand If it meant anything, I'd tell you I am sorry If I could speak, I'd ask to hear you sing again
5.
I am as quiet as the faded paper sky The letters too washed out to read The streets are empty in the tired morning light The world is missing or asleep I know, I can't just wait and hope The world won’t change because I want it to I know there must be more than this I make the same mistakes and hope for something new I am intangible, a ghost inside the walls I'm sinking down into the paint If you remember me, remember how I was Not as the fragment that remains
6.
There must be a moment, some fractional time In the space between breaths or the blink of an eye A chance to exchange "please don't go" for "goodbye" Don't say it's too late, don't leave me behind I'll trace my pen back through the lines Unspell the words I tried to write Take me apart, remake my face I take it all back, if that's what it takes Is a song no one hears ever really a song? If I gave you my heart, does that mean that it's gone? This grief has a gravity I can't escape I'm anchored in place by a dream I can't shake
7.
The Sower 04:37
You scattered your words with the seeds that were sown But the path where they landed was hard So I fell by the wayside, I fell by the road And my faith was snatched up by the birds You scattered your words with the seeds that were sown And at first I received them with joy But the soil was shallow, my roots hadn’t grown And in my suffering they were destroyed Oh, my God… I’m trying to listen Oh, my God… I’m trying to know There is truth, there is life in your whisper Let me hear you Please, don’t let me go You scattered your words with the seeds that were sown And I followed, I swear that I tried But the cares of the world came to swallow me whole My desires eclipsed your designs Wait... I can be good, if you’ll help me Wait... I can be better than this Wait... I could be good if you’d help me Wait... I could be better than this
8.
We Spoke 04:16
We were laughing, we were alive We spoke our words into the silence The only words we ever knew We lit our torches against the night And if their light has faded now If you've forgotten, I will remember for you If, when you put the pen to paper They still hung on every line Could you have ever walked away? Could anything have changed your mind? But circumstances took that from you The choice to stay or to depart The same force that carves the earth in canyons You eroded, slowly broke apart We will have our stories told Be seen, be known We will have our stories told If we must tell them with our flesh and bones “And maybe it's for the best”, you whisper In words you can hear, and no one else “Perhaps it's better to be silent,” you say As if to convince yourself So let's be sensible, be solemn Stand with our dignity intact Let's be immaculate as statues Let's be admired, cold, and dead So let's be sensible, be solemn Stand with our dignity intact Let's be immaculate as statues Let's be admired, cold, and dead And on our epitaphs, they'll chisel "He always kept his hair cut short." "She never embarrassed us in public.” "He never, ever raised his voice." "She never shouted, never spoke."
9.
Sometime last month I started growing out my hair And I know John won't believe it but I've been working on a beard I hope this isn't just a change for the sake of change I’d like to think that I'm improving, but maybe I'm just playing games A fresh coat of paint, to disguise that I'm the same We're all making progress Or at least that's what we've taught ourselves to claim Tell me tomorrow will be better than today If you have to lie, then lie I just need to hear you say it Tell me everything we love will always stay That what we've made will never die Say anything, I swear I will believe it I used to have so many reasons not to go But every single one has vanished, and I guess I didn’t follow It feels like light leaked through the cracks around the bulb The brightness drained away like water And left the fixture dead and dull So what is left, when joy has faded to routine? How many boards can you replace Before the house you built is no longer the same? I need you here, whatever else may come to pass If you left, it might not kill me but I would never be alive again
10.
Colorado 05:01
You would have been happy; the first thing I did was start praying For a moment, I laughed at the thought of me praying for you My faith is imperfect, I know, but there's one thing I'm sure of I learned from you most of what I ever learned about truth You were a gunslinger, To us you were a legend I never once heard you speak a word That wasn't spoken with love You were always so sure That we would make you proud And I hope you were I hope you are, now The strength in her voice on the phone made my own feel like weakness And the first thing she told me was, "We lost a good man today" There was never a doubt in my mind you were destined for heaven I never once saw your smile without glimpsing some other place To me you were John Wayne, plain-spoken and quietly fearless I remember you best on the porch watching fire streak the sky Is that mesa still standing, do mountains still line the horizon? A part of me thought Colorado would crumble when we said goodbye

about

This is a punk rock album about growing up.

"Stars" was our back-to-basics album, after a couple of more experimental releases in the early 2010s. Speaking for myself, at least, I wanted to recapture the uncomplicated punk energy of our early songs, but now with the (relative) emotional maturity of a 30-year-old brought to bear on the lyrics.

Zoey and I lost our grandfather during the writing of this record, and before that happened there were other areas of my life that had collapsed already. I was also quietly grappling, more than ever, with whatever beige, monolithic force it is that crushes the playfulness and exuberance out of a person as they grow older and are expected to act like an adult. There is a tension there, between the need to become the person others are depending on you to be and the need to be fully alive and have an outlet for joy.

This has always been one of our favorite records we've made, and my first quarantine project of 2020 was to re-mix and re-master it from scratch, to get the sound quality more in line with our newer work. I think it's much closer now to the vision I originally had in my head while making it five years ago. To say nothing of the gorgeous new artwork, painted by our very own Jackie LeFevers.

This album is about anxiety and loss and growing into the person you want to be without losing the things that make life interesting along the way.

- Matt
This Glass Embrace
October 2020

credits

released July 31, 2015

Matt LeFevers - lead and backing vocals, electric and acoustic guitars, keyboards, percussion, ukulele, glockenspiel.
Kennedy Rice - bass guitars.
Zoey LeFevers - drums, additional vocals on “We Spoke”.
Jackie LeFevers - backing vocals, lead vocals on "The Paper Sky" and "We Spoke".

Recorded 2014-2015 at The Mercury Room (Chandler, AZ).
Produced and engineered by Matt LeFevers.

Re-mixed in 2020 by Matt LeFevers at the Studio In Exile.
Re-mastered in 2020 by Bill Henderson at Azimuth Mastering.
New artwork painted by Jackie LeFevers.

All songs written by This Glass Embrace. Copyright 2015. All rights reserved.

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